Cillen

Why is hard to see
When life puts you where you don't wanna be
Why is difficult to understand
When you don't let time command

Looking forward to the future may be a tricky call
When the past have been a fun squall
To take a step you don't wanna take
Might be a huge mistake

But you gotta dare to go
For something else to show
Answers will appear
When you are ready to hear

A feeling for rush can be strong
Your low attention will make you wrong
Time will be on your side
If you wisely use the tide

So don't look back
When you know your track
Pack your load
And hit the road

Make sure you continue your journey
Even through battle and tourney
No matter how you started
If your will is well hearted

Cecilia E. Jansson




Earlier published

Spinning Compass

Whenever it's so, Wherever you go

Time is all what you need. Always. Time. Sometimes in a small amount, sometimes forever... Time is not valuable in money, time is valuable in life. We all have it, we all need it. How you use it will reflect what you do, how you consider it will tell who you are. 

Time goes around in different wheels. We call it hours, days, weeks, months, years, generations and lives. We are in charge of our owns, but we can affect others. Past time can never come back (unless you are not flying west). A lost night sleep is lost, a lost hour at day is never there again. This time gives us experience, so the hours are never lost as long as we remember them. Whatever you do, whenever you do, never regret. Learn. Correct misstakes and make it right. Use time as the field for development. See time as a never ending story of chances. Make time a value of life. Don't let time make you hurry. Let time give you time.

Time is not money. Everyone have time, but we all have different amount of money. What we do is money. We all do different things. Time is your life. We all have life. Make your time of life valuable to you.

Memories are the most beautiful thing we have. To remember past times can be the sadest and happiest thing of a flashback. Smells helps you remember feelings. Music will make you to remember moments in life. I think the best music is music you can relate to. It don't always have to be the text, it can be the feeling you get when you listen. Telephone just went on in my playlist, and it makes me remember my last months in Holland as yesterday. A song by TATU start to play and I am fifteen again. If next one is new one, I will remember this moment in the future. I think the most valuable we have is our memories, it is our story. It is the only thing we safely bring with us everywhere we go.


The music library is on random...

Lady Gaga ft. Beyonce "Telephone" - At D & M's place in Asten, hanging out during a good weekend, a nice evening at Heijligers is coming ahead.

TATU - Fifteen.

Akcent "Say My Name" - I am back at Kubke in Helden at a Sunday night...

Anouk "Lay it Down" - On the roads in Holland, going with my candy car somewhere...

Jazmine Sullivan "Bust Your Windows" - Packing for Hawaii, excited and full of expectations. Kept me fighting the first months.

Anna Bergendahl "This is My Life" Radio Remix- New one I havn't payed attention to before, I will keep listen to this one. New times ahead.

Agnes "On and On" - Old good times...

Chris Brown "Run It" - Atleast six years ago, lets enjoy RNB and dancing. The four gang bang!

Lil Wayne "Lollipop" - Sterre's playlist is on and we are getting ready for a night out.

Anouk "If I Go" - On my way from Holland. Damn if you stop my dreams!

Rihanna "S&M" - Back 'Home-Home' during the last half year between Holland and Hawaii, hanging out with friends.

Shakira "Did It Again (Lo Hecho Esta Hecho)" - Let's listen over again... and again... and I still listen.

Chris Brown "Give me that" - The trip to China 2005

Esmee Denters "Sad Symphony" - New, good, chill out one. Will attach new memories to this one.
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TATU "Dangerous" - My worries are huge. Fifteen and a really grown up teenager. Yeah, sure. Compared to my life today, I didn't even had worries to consider.

Christina Aguilera "Beautiful" - Around 2003-2004. Shall I go to the stable at 4 pm or 5 pm?

Youngbloodz "Imma Shine" - Out, running. Combat and dance exercising. High School 2-3 year. Step Up was IT!

Mel C " I Turn To You" - Wow, flashback! I am home alone, the song fill the whole upper level of our house. It's the best hour of the day. Waiting for mum to get home so we can go to the stable. A am free. It is 2002...

 

Paramore "Brick mr Boring Brick" - Exacly I year back. Time is standing still... Where am I going? Ten thousand ways to choose.

 

Cascada "Kids in America" - 2007, I am with my dad and brother at Branas Ski resort for snowboarding. Right now I am working on my WWII Pearl Harbor Scetch, if you know me - you know that scetch.

 

I can't manage me to stop...

Micheal Jackson... Back in 1997

Britney Spears... Summer 2004

Flo Rida "Low" - Here we Go! HRG Good Times.

Gwen Steffany "Rich Girl" - Bekymmerslösa tider. Hanging out with E.

Madonna "Blind" - No comments, not anymore, going to far, going blind...

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Racing at Kaneohe Yacht Club today! It was crazy. Normally the puppies Cal 20's are doing well, but they had only tried this one once beefore, in easy water. It was windy out there today. It started with the sails, it was constructed holes in the sails! Who make a sail with holes? The ideas was to make the wind go through and power the leech. Stupid! But it was what we had to go with. Next, I realize we didn't had any wind arrow or yarn in the sidetays to show the wind direction. Still in the dock we fixed it. On water our first issue was a stuck outhaul, we couldn't make it tight and the bubble in the main was a fact. Racing round one and lay on the jib was the first test. We hadn't any thing on that puppy to help us out. No white tape, no knife, no extra lines, no rudder extender, no sparpole, no tools... and we had forgot the watch to the start...

We broke the first of the three races and got a knife from the startboat. We managed to fix som struggle with the jib. Then, I realize how we could fix the outhaul with a peice of line from the jiblech. We got a stopwatch from L's other boat and we was set for the second race. By starting to early we went on the wrong piont of sail. It seemed to go well anyway, uptil we came close to the first buoy, then two blocks for the jibcheet on the port exploded. We had to break again. Surfing on run we remanage the jibcheets in other blocks. Time for a snack and I brought up my banana. "Do you have a BANANA onboard! That's why we are so struggled. Bananas are bad luck on boats. Never bring a banana onboard." Okay lets eat the banana and hope we are fine. I restarted the stopwatch and we was set, AGAIN! Cruisesailing up and down wating for our start flag. Then we hear L screaming FUCK from the stern. The rudder just broke! We had no steer and the wind powered the boat. "Let the jib go and cruise on the main." Finally, after crossing the whole course we got contact with a powerboat. We got the jib down and then the main. The powerboat picked us up and gave us ride to the dock. We was done. The litte puppy will need some good service before she are set to go out again.


Thanks to experienced sailors onboard with fighting spirit we was fine. I have learn to not bring bananas on boats, and some serious experience too. Since all three of us was in a good mood and stayed calm, I actually did enjoy the day. Well, I do have a story to tell...

 

"The Cill - On Water"

This is your chance. She is a 60 feet trimaran, going easily in 40 knot. To watch her on video is cool, to see her live is undescribable. It became a lifetime memory. Do you want to see a spider queen on water?

The beauty of HiQ!


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gYPwGlqKxVY&feature=related